To a Barista

Daniel Bosch
April 14, 2014
Daniel Bosch

O Happy Grief!




My venti, double-shot, no-foam, extra-soy
Latté got to me extra-hot, so I
Slipped an extra dollar in the broken cup
At the register, where extroverted “Scott”
Charms patrons with the extra pumps of joy
In his palaver as he exchanges change
Or slides an extra unbleached paper cuff
Over the bottom of an extravagance.


But it was you who ground the grounds I sip
The nectar of, and it is you—not “Scott”—
Whose lower lip offers a ring to which I’d clip
Love’s carabiner, and it is your tat
And your blue hair I find I’m staring at
Over a latté that got me extra-hot.



Three sounds at the end of the name of the signature drink you call out,
The final syllables of "Double Tall Skim Cappuccino,”


End in vowels that sound their own names,
Terminate in long, singable phonemes,


Such that abstract “Time” gives form to, or orders, your order,
And temporality is made audible, nearly tangible, by the expression of your need,

Even as it masks need: for the scripted “Double Tall Skim Cappuccino”—
A bit of corporate-speak, written in Seattle—denies your deeper thirst


For a philosophy that is physical, felt in words, and acknowledged
Tacitly, by smiling into your apron, as if into the depths of language,


While your pink fingertips let five coins fall into my hand,
And the soft ends of your fingers, releasing seventeen cents


Idly trace, on my palm, a tiny, timeless hieroglyph,
Distractedly revising, once again, my love-line’s eternal palimpsest.



Is the motherfucker sitting next to me
A poet, too? Crabbed, scribbled lines of text,
Mostly crossed out; nibbled pencil; donut crumbs
Aloft in auburn chest hair; pseudo-perplexed
Expression as a subtly ribald pun
Occurs and is rejected as too dumb,
And then is wisely reconsidered? In this context,
He’s Chaucer! He’s Shakespeare! He’s Walt Whitman!


No. In this contest, I write the hero’s
Verses. I memorialize your name.
In my figures, my images, my metaphors
You will live forever. My lines lay claim
To your infinitely caffeinating eros.
My table is beside a wall of mirrors.



A Clean Well-lighted Place

We all read Hemingway, so we all pity
Ancient, deaf, brandy-besotted men scarred
By light which falls to terraces through leaves.
We all read Hemingway, so we all hate the petty
Younger waiter who can only see as far
As the end of his own prick, and who believes
The older, kinder waiter is a fool.
We all read Hemingway in middle school,


When we haven’t yet tried to walk with saucers
Stacked at our table; when we haven’t yet cut
A hanged uncle down; before we know what loss is.
You made my Mocha Latté at half-past eight.
Starbucks’ rule is customers out by ten, but
We all read Hemingway, so you stand and wait.



Moby-Dick, Or The Whale

In Spanish you can see a question coming:
A trigger’s curl, a reader’s fingerhold
That swells the surface-page as whales advance.
If sperm tack leeward, heads like mighty thumbs,
The trigger’s curl stiffens its resistance,
But triggers always do what they are told.


Does Heidi Klum love Seal? In Starbucks I download
Café con Musica while harpoons score
A milk made maculate by prints of whales.
Did Ahab sense his first mate at the door?


In “Kissed by a Rose” the first mate has his doubts.
In Starbucks music splits the mermaid’s tail.
One day you are in, and the next day, you are out.
The mermaid on my cup was born a seal.



When I consider how three bucks is spent
On one venti con leche, which lasts a half an hour;


How half the time I can’t find a free power outlet;
And how I can’t prevent myself from half-


Listening to our tongue—dinged, hammered, and bent
In half by a professor misreading Milton,


By a union steward who still speaks mill town,
By a chocolate-smeared toddler who’s melting down,


By the last tween to beat Aliens vs. Predator,
By the doctor who prescribed my mom’s Miltown,


By a sun-bleached MILF who beats her daughter
Or a BFF hitting on his BFFL,


Each one of them leaning on a cell—
You are still Pavlov, and your smile is still a bell.



I am in line. I am in line again.
The sea has crashed against again, and wells,
Willingly. I am a swell of ink: my I ams
Never cease. It is my aim to see you.


I am to see without without distortion;
Intelligibly to graphite graph; to ink
Indelibly. I am my aim, an order.
I am to ink skin not my skin, to see you.


A doctor slapped me. I came to in line
For food, warmth, school, the slide, a job, the john.
I am my place in line. What other aims
Without without could I from graphite draw?
In line is certainty. For it I choose to.
I am to see to it that I do not lose you.



an EKG

My therapist calls it the “Rio Grande,”
The dream she has no trouble understanding:


I’m at a vista point. It’s called “The Three Lips.”
I drop a dime into the Viewing Scope


So I can study, six-thousand feet below,
Their muddy river craft stuck on a shoal


Of micro-foam, three cardiologists
Who diagnose me based on the rough drafts


I’ve written in cups, in sepia, in sips’
Weak strata, milk streaked on canyon walls,


Who measure out my life on café stools
In geologic time, and always read false


Crises in the sediments: they think I hope
In time you will return my sentiments.



Green apron on a thin brass hook,
You didn’t hang yourself.


Green apron on a bad finger
Crooked to say, “Come closer,”


I have outlasted you again
(This will all be in my book.)


Green pennant of my defeat,
Green sail ripped from the masthead,


Green girl posing for a drapery sketch
(Green folds enclosing nothing),


You didn’t hang yourself—
Why should I? Green harbinger,


When one shift ends
The next begins.



Daniel Bosch is a Senior Editor at Berfrois.  His series of meditations on poets' epitaphs will run April 28th through May 2nd at The Paris Review Daily.