The Sense in Turning Away


She wrote: color is the sound an object makes in response to light. Objects don’t speak unless spoken to. An object does not have a color—it makes a color (the way a bell makes a sound).

She wrote: People ask me if there could be another. People ask if I have considered another, if I am ready to move on. No, and no. Not that it’s too soon, but that it will always be too soon. There is no other for me. I don’t want another, and I would not want her to want another, had it been her and not me who was asked if there could be another.

She sent me this photograph and wrote: I run across my own life as a dog runs across a field, zigzag. The search is endless. Then I come to a sudden stop. I stand and listen to the small movements in things. I listen with my camera, for the camera is a kind of microphone.

We know, but cannot easily show, that warmth is molecular motion. We know that sound is molecular motion, and that everything is moving at tremendous speed.

She wrote: Lost in Bern one afternoon, I saw the sign. Da. Da. Da.

She wrote: Last week I walked down Forchstrasse from Hegibachplatz. I hadn’t noticed the psychiatric hospital before, nor the long row of antiques shops, car dealerships, and construction sites. What a rage of life flows around us all the time, invisible, inaudible, but intense and ever present. I walked on, thinking about medicine flowing through uncooperative veins and different brains. As I walked farther east, the city began to loosen its usual order, and new relationships emerged between the things I saw. The last stretch of the walk, about half a mile, brought, in quick succession, a mosque (one of four minarets in the country; one of no more than four, by law), a church, a university hospital, and a cemetery, as though there were an inexorable logic to this particular order, as though the rule were to try one thing after another in our life, to consider religion and science in their turn until the journey came to an end at the grave.

She wrote something from Anne Carson: “On the day He was to create justice / God got involved in making a dragonfly / and lost track of time.” To lose track of time is to momentarily draw closer to God.

These days, these flowing hours, and the strange relationships between things: this is how the eye functions in the aftermath of some event.

She wrote: Or perhaps earlier on I ought to have said: The microphone is a kind of camera. In Paris in 1836, the first sound recording was made, and it was of the song “Au Clair de la Lune.” And so, for decades, before there was the means of playing it back, there existed a picture of that song.

She wrote: Everything is moving. Color, too, is molecular motion. Coloris the selective absorption and emission of light on the surface of an object. As an untouched drum makes no sound, an object in total darkness has no color. A photograph full of muted but complicated color is similar to a full orchestra playing a quiet passage, with powerful resources used to create a subtle effect.

She wrote to me: What the eye sends away (fort), the camera brings back (da).

The Greek fleet was ready for war. But there were no winds, and they could not set sail. Why were there no winds? The goddess Diana’s anger was turned against them. Agamemnon had killed a doe sacred to her in her sacred grove in Aulis, and there would be no winds, and no sailing, and no war, and no destruction of Troy, until she had her satisfaction. Men are always giving women away. Agamemnon agreed to give away his daughter Iphigenia to Diana as a sacrifice. (Fort.)

In the scene Timanthes painted of Iphigenia’s departure, Calchas was sorrowful, Odysseus was more sorrowful, and Menelaos was overcome with sorrow, all of which Timanthes portrayed with extreme accuracy. But the father Agamemnon’s grief was greatest of all, and Timanthes could not or would not go beyond the limit of what had already been shown. And so he depicted Agamemnon without depicting him: turned away, with a veil over his head. (Da.)

Painters know the power of this gesture. One turns away to show what cannot otherwise be shown.

She wrote to me about the sense in turning away, about the power of a gesture that speaks without being spoken to.


Horse Statue

Street sign along a road

boots in a window

Blue garage doors

blue scarf blowing in the wind

Rooftops of houses

Statue covering its face with its arms

Fence with crosses over it

Teju Cole is Distinguished Writer in Residence at Bard College, and the photography critic for the New York Times Magazine. His novel Open City won the PEN/Hemingway Award and the Internationaler Literaturpreis.

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The Sense in Turning Away

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